fire works....fwy 5S...by disney

fire works, a helicopter following with a bright light car on a highway that is going way to fast, and fire works again. Beautiful, big one, huge celebration...and on my heart release, freedom, a feeling of lightness. Seems like we all have someone who done us wrong, we all carry that luggage, that is heavy, that bring us down. The only thing we have to do, is forgive, let it go, we need to allowed the healing to happen. Not easy to do, some would think. Others would think, I have done it ones, and I am still angry, so did not work. Only Jezus, and only with his powers, and only because of his love, we can and I know it [ :) ]. With him, we can just put it away, forgive, and with him and thanks to his powers we can droop that heavy luggage, and become free from anger, bitternes, and disaire to revange. And then fire works, celebration of freedom...

2912

August 6th 2001, New York. I lend it in JFK Airport, I have been on and off but for most part 2912 days in USA. During that time, I got to know Jesus, so there is something very great about that time, so celebration is necessary , so let celebrate.... This has been a good time, weird time, growing up time, but most of all, this has been a time of me discovering the greatest love of all, so another 182 days, maybe 240, maybe even 364 days since august seems to be the key month and I will be moving home, so I can share with other Polaks, how much they are loved...

so He spoke...

Seems like every time Christians are being told how they supposed to do life, there is some anger and resentment. Especially if they hear staff hard to hear, things they don't want to apply. Jesus does it any way, He brings is home, says it how it is. He does not say things that are address only to one group of Christians, for him there is nothing like different groups, it is all one....so if He says something to one person, it is to you or me....as well. So when He says "There's one thing left: Go sell whatever you own and give it to the poor. All your wealth will then be heavenly wealth. And come follow me." He actually says that too me!!! Right here, almost seems like it is more then ok for me to say, really? All of it, but what exactly do you want God? "Truly I say to you, there is no one who has left house or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or farms, for My sake and for the gospel's sake,but that he will receive a hundred times as much now in the present age, houses and brothers and sisters and mothers and children and farms, along with persecutions; and in the age to come, eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and the last, first." So this is not a joke, for real, not only my money, staff, but all who I love, He really just wants it all. But how? how does He finds it ok even to request that? How dare He? I know He is my God, my savior, my friend, but REALLY? He must be not talking to me then, I am already giving up so much, I am doing well, I do go to church, I pray (even for those I don't like), I help others, I even tie now, so there is no way He is talking to me, He must be talking to that person that sit next to me today at church, I am sure that is it. Wow, that feel so much better now, it was not too me, He is happy with me...right? But what if that was me, I can not do what He is asking for, this is impossible, crazy, there is no way. I already don't have much, do I? But what if He did? No, He could not, He knows me, He knows I just can't..."With people it is impossible, but not with God; for all things are possible with God.".........so He spoke, hard to hear...but said it with love, care... my friend.