God

God has been just so powerful...and just too real, that even fact that I am awake at 2 am in the morning becouse of some medical treatment...I fell like He got it all anther control.

I don't think we as humans are able to comprehend the Love God has for us. We are simply not able to grasp it...and that is why we have such a hard time trusting it, and fully believe that it ( Gods love) is. There is an idea, ... us, just fully concentrate on us, and the Love God is giving us, pouring on us...and with that love there is a hope that we could possibly be the kind of people that don't look around to see what is wrong with everybody around us, but be actually able to look at us...and see, and look for the difference we could make, without trying to force a change on others, but allowing through love from God- that change happen naturally....That could only happen if we fully trust that God loves us...and as mush as we know it, we choose to believe it, we try to believe it, sometimes we even believe it...we simply don't trust it enough....and it is not becouse we don't want to trust it...we simply just can't understand it, can't grasp it (Gods love).

seems like God has this big plan for all of us...just hard to understand sometimes why we fear it,

I have been waking up for coupe weeks now, and each day I wake up knowing what is Gods plan for me. I love knowing, it is amazing to know where God is taking me...and I am so exited for all that He has prepare for me.

I am ready to sit down, and enjoy the ride...look around and be all exited about all the great that I will see...all that God created...

Gods plan for us...is us...is people....that is all what he wants us to focus on. For me...is my people, my land...my Polska...and I honored to be part of His army, His plan, His work...and He loves my people, my land, my Polska...so here I am...ready to sit down and relax.

so many things

well...work started for me...wow...and school is coming up...and God is teaching me how He it the most important part of my life...and I have told the worst things about myself to this one boy and he still wants to go out with me tomorrow...weird...

one month

I have been back in California for a month, and I have not been able to work.
This has been a month were I have learn more about the person I am, more about my relations with Jesus, and more about where my heart belongs.
This has been a month of learning how to sit down and be with God, and listen to what he has to say. This has been a month of relaxing, worrying, trusting and relaxing again.

I am so ready to start working, I am looking forward to school starting again...I am looking forward to all that God has prepare for me...

here I am ...

here I am...is my way to collect all that is on my heart, in my brain and at the same time, share it with those that are far, and are not aware of the fact that I do think and feel occasionally, so here I am ready to run my race...