Wednesday, February 25, 2009
fear...trust
fear...for some reason I am not that afraid of physical hurt, maybe that is why I don't fear getting hurt. I have no problem risking it just for the moment of excitement and feeling of adventure. And yes sometimes there is this thought right before I take the risky action "what if I get hurt" then most of the time I will think of what is the worst thing that could happen, and if I am ok with what ever it could be, I will just go for it. But it is totally different when it comes to my life for Jesus. I think fear is one of the stimuli that stops me often from doing what I feel God is putting on my heart to do. I have yet figure out the right conclusion to why that is the case. But one of the idea that I had on my mind in last 2 weeks is...maybe my lack of trust in God, my lack of trust of who I am in God, my lack of trust of His control, my lack of trust in His intentions for my life is the factor that when it comes to take that risk for Him, I would think of the worst possible outcome, I fear it...and I wont take the risk, just to make sure this time I would not get hurt.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
25 random....staff
since I created that list because of facebook and the fact that I was kind of supposed to, I figure I will post it here...
1. I had to run away from skinheads so I don't get bit up many times in my life.
2. My favorite way of transportation is hitchhiking…then train, bicycle, walking, car, bus, airplane,
3. I iron my pajamas, and wash and polish my shows on a regular basis
4. As a kid I made this one boy nose bleed because he made fun of my friend
5. Even if things taste wrong or old, I wont stop eating it, I will just ponder on an idea that maybe something wrong with it, but for some reason I be still eating it
6. I had my first Guinness in Irish bar in Ireland on my 18th b-day....one of the best summers ever
7. I am scared of people, I challenged that fear on a daily basis
8. I milked cows, cleaned around pigs and feed chickens, droved tractors, picked potatoes, took care of things on fields....and that are one of the best memories of my childhood
9. I despite dirtiness, mass and clatter...I have nightmares that I can’t get my house clean, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and I have to force myself to stay in bad not to start cleaning
10. I love bungee jumping …if I could I would do it every day
11. I have learned English mostly by watching Friends with subtitles, and reading Winnie the Pooh, and reading dictionary
12. I have lost my conscious many times in my life each time because I went down the stairs or I had walked into the wall or poll
13. I always wanted a dog...so I got two tortoises
14. I love cooking even more baking...but I don’t know how to bake in USA
15. My grandmother is the best woman I ever met,
16. I had my first Snickers bar- May 26 1992
17. I grow up during communism...and I believe in communism...I realize it can not be done right, but I am register as a one in Poland
18. I started plying on a guitar when I was 9 years old
19. I took Latin in school in after school programs for fun
20. As a kid I used to get tapes with classical music and other kind...but mostly classical as a Christmas and b-day presents because that was all I want it...
21. I hated playing with dolls and all the school, house kind of play time with my sister
22. Snow is wet and cold and I hate it....grow up in Poland
23. I like Am radio station, like to read my news, and follow the financial staff that are going on
24. Running is my freedom
25. My family ...my mom, dad, sister, brother, brother in law, nephew, nice, grandma, aunt, uncle, are the most important people in my life....but I value the rest of my whole family also ( there is something very important to me in blood relations...I would die for any of them, and I mean it) as well and friends happen to be important to....
Getting to know Jesus is the best thing ever happen to me
1. I had to run away from skinheads so I don't get bit up many times in my life.
2. My favorite way of transportation is hitchhiking…then train, bicycle, walking, car, bus, airplane,
3. I iron my pajamas, and wash and polish my shows on a regular basis
4. As a kid I made this one boy nose bleed because he made fun of my friend
5. Even if things taste wrong or old, I wont stop eating it, I will just ponder on an idea that maybe something wrong with it, but for some reason I be still eating it
6. I had my first Guinness in Irish bar in Ireland on my 18th b-day....one of the best summers ever
7. I am scared of people, I challenged that fear on a daily basis
8. I milked cows, cleaned around pigs and feed chickens, droved tractors, picked potatoes, took care of things on fields....and that are one of the best memories of my childhood
9. I despite dirtiness, mass and clatter...I have nightmares that I can’t get my house clean, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and I have to force myself to stay in bad not to start cleaning
10. I love bungee jumping …if I could I would do it every day
11. I have learned English mostly by watching Friends with subtitles, and reading Winnie the Pooh, and reading dictionary
12. I have lost my conscious many times in my life each time because I went down the stairs or I had walked into the wall or poll
13. I always wanted a dog...so I got two tortoises
14. I love cooking even more baking...but I don’t know how to bake in USA
15. My grandmother is the best woman I ever met,
16. I had my first Snickers bar- May 26 1992
17. I grow up during communism...and I believe in communism...I realize it can not be done right, but I am register as a one in Poland
18. I started plying on a guitar when I was 9 years old
19. I took Latin in school in after school programs for fun
20. As a kid I used to get tapes with classical music and other kind...but mostly classical as a Christmas and b-day presents because that was all I want it...
21. I hated playing with dolls and all the school, house kind of play time with my sister
22. Snow is wet and cold and I hate it....grow up in Poland
23. I like Am radio station, like to read my news, and follow the financial staff that are going on
24. Running is my freedom
25. My family ...my mom, dad, sister, brother, brother in law, nephew, nice, grandma, aunt, uncle, are the most important people in my life....but I value the rest of my whole family also ( there is something very important to me in blood relations...I would die for any of them, and I mean it) as well and friends happen to be important to....
Getting to know Jesus is the best thing ever happen to me
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